God is determined to thwart our purposes in
life and to make us the reproach of men instead.
One day, at three
o’clock in the morning, the Lord woke me up to spend some time with him. In the
middle of the fellowship, he gave me a strange instruction. He asked me to move
the settees from my den upstairs into the main living-room downstairs, and to
move the ones downstairs upstairs.
What was odd about
this instruction was that the settees in question were ragged and literally in
tatters. Surely, it was not appropriate to put them in the main living-room
where we entertain guests.
Nevertheless, I was
very excited by the instruction. I felt it could only mean one thing: the Lord
was planning to replace the old furniture with new ones. The settees in
question were twenty-three years old. We could have replaced them long before
then, except that the Lord had taken over our finances and buying new settees
did not seem to be one of his priorities. But now, it seemed, the time had
finally come. We were in for a treat. Since we had waited patiently for so long
to replace them, I wondered what kind of replacement the Lord would come up
with. One thing was certain; they would be fabulous.
I quickly obeyed the
instruction. I did not wait until there was someone else awake to help me. All
night long, I carried the settees downstairs and arranged them in the
living-room. I then put the relatively new ones that had been in the
living-room upstairs in the den. It was not easy, but I managed to do it all by
myself. Later on, I explained the situation to my wife. “The Lord has decided
to get us new furniture,” I declared. “In readiness, he has asked that we move
the old ones downstairs.”
I expected all this
to be accomplished in a matter of days. But days rolled into weeks; and weeks
rolled into months, and nothing happened. The Lord seemed to have completely
forgotten about the question of our furniture. I became thoroughly confused.
Did I get it wrong? Was it not the Lord who told me to move the old furniture
downstairs? What exactly is the meaning of this? What is the Lord trying to
bring out in all this?
Abrahamic delay
God promised Abram a
son. On that basis, he changed his name. “Your name will no longer be Abram,”
he said. “From now on, your name shall be called Abraham.” Significantly,
Abraham means “father of many nations.” So let us imagine that Abraham takes
out an ad in a newspaper saying: “I, previously known as Abram, now wish to be
called Abraham.” This would be all well and good except that everyone knows
Abraham does not have even one single child.
Worse still, after
God made the promise, he seemed to forget about it; for twenty-five years! What
is the point of this? What is supposed to happen to Abraham in the meantime? In
the meantime, God has turned him into a laughing stock. Abraham has become a
childless “father of many nations.”
Reproach of men
Why does God behave
like this? Why is God seemingly determined to make us a reproach of men? Take a
look at the complaint of the Psalmist: “I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of
men, and despised of the people. All those who see me ridicule me; they shoot
out the lip, they shake the head, saying, ‘He trusted in the LORD, let him
rescue him; let him deliver him, since he delights in him!” (Psalm 22:6-8).
This has been my
experience with the Lord. He deliberately puts me in embarrassing situations.
How was I to explain the transition in my life from a highfalutin intellectual
to a bible-carrying believer to my old friends? How could I go from grace to
grass in the name of the gospel? How could I end up preaching the gospel with
an Oxford university doctorate?
Therefore, for over
ten years, I cut off all contacts with my friends. I just could not face them.
I was convinced that they would not understand. I was not even the pastor of a
big or famous church. All I did was conduct a fellowship with a handful of
people in a little corner of Lagos. Moreover, God forbid that I should preach
with the enticing words of man’s wisdom in order to attract a big congregation.
Object lesson
The Lord’s injunction
concerning my old settees turned out to be an object lesson on my spiritual
conversion. The settees became a major eyesore in our living-room. I started
dreading people coming to visit us. What would they think? The settees were
torn in different places. In some, the underlying foam was clearly visible. So
I stopped inviting people home.
If they came to visit
me uninvited, I would go into some elaborate explanation about the furniture,
laying the blame squarely at the doorstep of the Holy Spirit. “I’m sorry about
the condition of this place, but the Holy Spirit told me to put this
twenty-three year old furniture bang in the living-room.”
Some looked at me
pitifully, convinced that I was the victim of some bizarre deception. But the
Lord did not make things any easier. He forbade me from explaining to anyone
that he was the one who told me to put the torn furniture in the living-room.
Neither could I pray that people would not come to visit me. The same God to
whom the prayer would be addressed was the very person clearly determined to
embarrass me.
Humiliating love
Now here is the rub:
why was the Lord doing this to me? I thought I should have been commended for
using a settee for over twenty-three years. Instead, the Lord turned this into
a reproach for me. After a few months, it became clear to me that the Lord had
no intention of getting us new settees. I reminded him that I actually had not
asked him for new ones. He was the one who brought the matter up. Since he was
no longer interested, could I please put the old settees back in their original
hiding place upstairs? The answer was an emphatic “No.”
The bible says God is
love. But I ask you: what kind of love is God really? Let me tell you. God’s
love is hard and humiliating. He secures our welfare through schemes that are
often unpalatable to us. He seems to take delight in disappointing our hopes
and in foiling our expectations of grandeur. God is determined to thwart our
purposes in life and to make us the reproach of men instead.
Twenty-five years
after he made the promise, God finally gave Abraham a son. The Lord never did
forget the promise he made to Abraham. He was simply determined to test his
faith.
Twenty-three years of
living with the same furniture, and seven months of having torn furniture
displayed for all to see in my living-room, the Lord finally instructed me to
go to a precise shop where he showed me a new set of settees that were simply
beautiful. Moreover, he miraculously provided me with the money to purchase it.
**** no doubt about it, our god is faithful
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